Drowning in the Sick Feeling

Dooley Noted: 5/2/2014

For the last two days, I was ill.

It’s a state no one desires. But, one can learn much from it.

Knowing the heated, sun-soaking hour walk to campus was not smart, I sulked as I sat on a bus.

I love that walk. I miss that walk.

I let my mind travel to Sickland. I asked myself, “How will you get through four hours of lab, feeling ill?”

How could I focus?

Will the students or faculty be able to tell?

In the first five minutes of lab, I felt my heaviness fade. I made myself talk and move more slowly. I breathed more.

My body was still sick. But I perceived it less. Since perception is reality, I didn’t “feel” sick.

Although I took care of myself as I was ill, I knew I didn’t have to feel that way.

Complaining is not well-received by others. No one desires to hear you gripe.

Acknowledge what is, but find what good can come from it.

I felt amazing this morning, fully appreciating kettlebells on a beach and the long, beautiful walk to the lab.

I felt a whole new appreciation for health and the importance of not focusing on “feeling” ill.

I came today back better than before. My teaching was better. My attitude was renewed.

The mindset means more than I realized.

As always, it’s your call.

– Dr. Kathy Dooley