Dooley Noted: 12/1/2015
This weekend, I experienced anger.
I currently hold a rigid attitude that I’m never staying anywhere I’m not welcome or anywhere I don’t want to be. I either find a way to enjoy it – or I see myself out of it.
I lost my cool.
It’s the truth about which I’m not proud.
I was in a situation where I tried to make myself comfortable and welcome. But my skill set fell short. Without exogenous help, my discomfort transformed into anger.
I went there. I made a choice.
I could have taken a walk around the block. I could have done some sprints to clear my head. I could have called a friend. Instead, I stayed – and I seethed.
I ended up hurting myself and someone I love.
And it was all a choice.
As I do the work to forgive myself, I can only recall a few times this year that I made the choice of anger.
Tempestuous by nature, I’ve learned to make choices away from anger with nurture.
And I will use the wretched after effects of anger as a reminder that it was my choice to feel that way. I was not comforted by my anger. I was made even more uncomfortable.
I hope we all learn that our reactions are choices. Therefore, our comfort is our choice.
I hope I choose wisely today.
I hope you do, too.
As always, it’s your call.
– Dr. Kathy Dooley
